hello hotboni,
its the 3rd day of ramadhan and i'm loving
every second of it. its always this time of the year
when my family gets much more closer, sharing common
interests such as cooking, baking, sewing and decorating
the house for the big day, hari raya. i've always liked
helping out in the kitchen to prepare for our break fast meals.
for the past 2 days, i've been cooking for the family.
i've got to help cos my mom will reach home late,
just in time to break fast. we had spaghetti for the first day and
yesterday, my dad made burgers. huahua. my dad makes good
burgers and he's good at making a big mess in the kitchen too.
well, i'm just greatful to have a dad who can cook and
sew curtains :) heeee.

in times like this, i only think of one person
whom i really miss so much. even my dad was talking
about her yesterday while preparing the burgers.its gonna be our 2nd year not having her in our house during hari raya. in a way, it feels kind of empty.
i still remember having her to wake us upduring our pre-dawn meals, having her sitting at thedining table, breaking fast together. having her to constantly
nag at us not to miss our prayers. haha, i just miss her presence. i wonder how she's doing right now. everyday i pray for her, hoping that she's doing just fine. insyallah, she's fine.

i've been pondering a lot about life the past few
days. yesterday night, i was tossing around my bed,
thinking about the memories
i've shared with the people who used to
exist and who still exist in my life. i thought about the times
i made them happy, the times i made them angry
and the things we learnt from each other. haha, bitter,
sweet, sour memories linger through my mind till i
shut my eyes to a good night sleep. one thing i've
learnt from all this pondering is that memories
will remain as memories, no matter how hard you
try to erase them. BUT, life still goes on :)